I thought he had a better grasp at sobriety than I did. It's strange because he sobered up before I did. My anxiety levels were low this week.probably because I spend all my time eating now. I've been tempted to buy a few more clothes but I resist. I have an appointment to see new specialitsts soon. I used to have control over what I ate but now I eat anything in the house. As soon as I get out from school, I have to lay down or take a nap. I barely have strenth to go to the gym in the mornings. I don't have the energy to do anything during the day. I have been eating and sleeping uncontrollably. I shall write a seperate blog detailing my feelings on it. I'm sure he's back out on the streets drinking and drugging. I haven't heard from my friend who relapsed. I know this because I did the assignment twice just to get it right and still he found faults with it. The last assignment I turned in was quality work.

He'll make sure to go out of his way to put our work down during critiques. He'll always use them as examples of 'good' students. My graphic design class is driving me up the wall. Just one problem, the project is to make a logo, and if there's one thing I hate the most in the graphic design world is logos. I'm still struggling with my graphic design class. That was the only good thing about doxepin, it made me sleep like a comatose person. I'm now on citolopram or somthin' like that. The meds made me eat continuously and contributed to my low energy levels. So I finally went and have been diagnosed with social phobia. My therapist has been pushing me to see a specialist to diagnose me with whatever I have. However, with the food poisoning, that's the time I feel the worst and just haven't had the strenghth to go. I usually work out in the mornings before school. I have missed the gym every day this week. That night I had a fever and had a strange pain in my legs. I got food poisoning last Monday courtesy of McDonalds. I get upset when I have a therapist appointment or a meeting for work cuz I know I have to work my sleep schedule around it and that just means less sleep for me. If I have school, I'll go and come back home to sleep. There's days I want to sleep all day and I do. I don't know what's going on with me right now.

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